Distracted

I've been very distracted the past few weeks. To the point that other things are not getting done. I had mentioned earlier about crushes, and I'm getting over one just to fall into another. (I know I'm desparate.) The earlier crush is still there and I think of her, but... sorry "Sugar, Sugar" just started playing on my iTunes... "I just can believe the loveliness of loving you..." don't you hate it when songs can express your feelings better than you can? Anyway, I'm starting to get over my first crush my realizing that there isn't a chance I would even meet this person. That's the kind of crush I have... long distance, and the person doesn't even know me. One day I'll explain the next song that just started to play on my iTunes.

The new crush is local, knows me, and I thought we had something going. But I've been disappointed a few times in the past weeks, which has led to the distraction. Does she care? Does she want to be with me? Does she want more? Unfortunately the answers are yes, no, and no. It's not that she said this to me, but isn't true that actions speak louder than words? I've been more forgiving with her because of her situation, but the other day she let it out that I was too old for her, and I've fallen into the friend zone. I don't know if I should just cut my losses and move on, or wait this out. I've been in the friend zone to know that getting out rarely if ever happens.

Have a good weekend, times are tough, but I have finally realized what taking it one day at a time really means.